My Issue

I have an issue with the Internet and boys. Separately the two are perfectly fine, but together, I can't control myself. It's not really that big of an issue, but I know that I should stop. I go on the Internet and start talking to guys that I find, and sometimes they become something more serious. I mean, I've met some great people through this, and a lot of the time there are guys just like me on the websites. That's what happens a lot within the teenage gay community. There are no options anywhere for us. As a straight person, you have half the school to choose from, but as a gay student, you have that one other gay guy who seems like a jerk and then you find out that he is but you talk to him anyways because you're lonely and you think that there is no one else out there and fear dying alone with cats... I've collected a lot of stories in that past seven months, and i wouldn't feel comfortable sharing them here. Anyway, as a gay guy if you go to the Internet and google a couple of easy phrases you can find a bunch of websites. I've had my fair share of unsafe encounters on the websites, but generally the fake people are pretty easy to spot, and I have a rule that I don't meet the person until I have seen his Facebook and have video chatted with him. I joined this new website that Grace told me about. It is interesting, but it is for older guys. I lied about my age just to try it out and see what'd happen. I like maturity, not necessarily in physical stuff, but of the mind. And older guys have that maturity more often than younger guys. I meet this guy, and I started to like him. And then we talked and I really started to like him. I started to imagine a life together with this guy, what we'd look like when we'd be old, and how we'd raise our children. I created an entire life for the two of us in my mind. Then I realized that I didn't know his name. I have issues. I realize this. Thank you for reading.