Fixing a Monologue

So today I spent most of my time fixing a monologue. What the monologue is about is a girl who is at her father's grave and is taking out her grievances toward him and how him being an alcoholic has ruined her life, but realizes that she will actually miss him and is upset because she had dreamed of this for her a long time. I want to show how tarnished the relationship is and how much of a right she has to be upset with him but also show that she can't hate him because he had an addiction. What I most enjoyed was how this idea I had at the beginning for this changed. I first just wanted the daughter to be happy, nothing but joy at her father's death to show how messed up she was. As I was writing it I realized that making her look happy about her father's death would make her personality seem foul and unlikeable and I want people to sympathise with her because of what she has gone through. If in the end she loves he father, after all he had done to her, then her personality is much more likeable.