Cousins

I have learned to tolerate people. A lot of the time I don't actually find certain people stimulating, but I talk to them and converse with them and act a certain way around them because that let's me navigate life successfully. Yesterday night I was at my cousins house. I haven't seen that side of my family in over an extremely long time. The last time i saw them was before my hair was red. I like my cousins, they can be fun people and I used to love playing with them when I was younger, but now as I get older, and as I don't play much anymore, I can really connect with them. They have created their political view and I have mine, it makes me upset that I can't share mine around them but they can share their ideas around me all the time. They are hardcore Christians and there is nothing wrong with that, but when they found out about my religious beliefs they all kind of freaked out. I never even told them, it was just a slip up on Facebook. They don't know about my sexuality, and I don't plan on telling them anything. What I hate is how I have to hide being gay around them, but yet they can lecture on Jesus. If they knew my sexuality then they wouldn't talk to me and family get togethers would be extremely awkward. I don't want that, so I am the one who has to sacrifice. They only joy I get from going to my cousins house was that I am smarter than them. I present myself much better than they do in an intellectual sense. My aunt compares my cousin in our intellect but I am much more mature, even if we were the same age (he is 14 and i am 15) and we know all the same information but I can pull it out of context and relate it to other things. For example, my cousin and I both very much enjoy social studies we both get the same grades in the class and my mother and aunt never did so in the car yesterday we were trying to explain why we like it so much. My cousin couldn't say anything more than that it is a fun and interesting class, and even when he said that it was filled with "likes" and pauses. I started to go off into how social studies is what makes our societies function and it teaches ideas and concepts and even morals, to the population of the people. If humanity as a whole doesn't remember its history then how can we progress? My aunt and cousin were speechless for a while, I don't really know why, but I'd like to believe it was because I stunned them with my awesome intelligence.

I have been blogging everyday for a while now and I like it. I like seeing how the page views increase and the folders if posts gets larger and larger. I'll probably keep blogging like this from now on. It isn't hard, and I can write a blog anywhere, like right now I a m writing this on my phone, and that makes it easy and I don't have to finish is all in one sitting. I started this post last night while I was at my cousin's house and I finished it when I woke up the next morning. And I find myself very often just waiting around for things, a lot of the time I'll do something stupid on my phone so that I don't look weird just standing and waiting, but now I can write a blog post, and I like where all of this is going. Thank you for reading.