This is a fantastic movie. It is rare that I watch a movie that has as much of an emotional impact on me personally. I don't ever cry because I feel bad for the characters, I would only ever cry when something makes me feel something. I haven't cried in months, and the tears that are falling from my face now aren't tears of sadness. The movie is sad, but it isn't. I am crying because of a happiness that is so perfect that I wish life could always be like this. I'm not giving a review of the movie, I'm not going to criticize it, and I honestly couldn't care about anyone's opinion on it, good or bad, because this movie is having an impact larger almost any movie I've seen.
Everything is beautiful. Even typing that makes me tear and I don't know why. I think it's because I believe it now. Everything is beautiful. Everything is beautiful. Even the shit on the street. People don't realize this, they get too caught up in their lives to realize that. They think that beauty can only exist in a painting or a model. I've spent the last half an hour starring at my hand. Every pore and every tinny hair, all of it is fantastic. I feel it, I feel something right now that is so unexplainable that I wish someone could just tell me what it is I am feeling. All I know is that my life is perfect, even though lots of it seems shitty and pointless, life is perfection. I sound like I'm on drugs, but I'm not because I doubt any drug can make you feel the way I do right now.
I have discovered the secret to life. This movie that I saw is just reinforcing that discovery. The main character in the movie, his life sucks. His wife is cheating on him, his daughter hates him, and he is in love with his 15 year old daughter's friend. But he knows the secret, but it's more than just knowing it, it's feeling it. Me and him, we get it. Our lives can be crappy but we are still happy, we are still in perfection within our own lives. He dies, which isn't a spoiler by the way, the movies starts off with him saying that he'll die by the end, and when he dies he has accepted it, he had accepted his death and he didn't even realize he was about to die. I feel that way right now. If I were to die I couldn't be angry, I could think that I was too young and haven't experienced anything, because the happiness and perfection within my life at this moment, is enough to make me feel that if I left this world right now then I couldn't possibly be disappointed because life had already given me so much to be thankful for. I love life. I love being alive enough that I have already accepted my death. I can live the rest of my life in total happiness now. I can't fear death anymore because life is too perfect and it would feel like a sin to be alive forever.
The universe is going to make my life shit, it does that to everyone. But the secret of life is to not let that get to you, it's to be able to view life as a wonderful and beautiful thing, it's to be able to see the beauty in the shit and admire everything about life. I've been living happy for six months now, and this movie just made me realize what I had already known.
Life is beautiful, it is amazing. Never forget that. Ever single moment that you live is perfection, and if you can accept that, then you have won.
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