Thursday, May 10, 2012

I Can't End This Thing

I am having trouble. My last scene is when Alexa starts to understand her father and his problem. It took me two periods today just typing and deleting everything I was writing. It's annoying not knowing how to put words to an idea. I have something to end the script, so I guess I can build off of that and see what comes out, but I have been really passionte about this, so I don't want to settle for "I guess I like it" because then when I'm directing I going to have to listen to the parts I don't like over and over, and be embarrassed when presenting. This is what I have.

ALEXA
It hurts to watch someone die. Addiction is probably the worst way someone can go. You always feel like you could do something. Like there is some switch that you decide to turn one day.
                              Pause.

ALEXA
But there's not.

ALEXA
I get that it wasn't your fault but... but I have the right to be upset. The things you did should have landed you in prison, but they didn't. We let it just happen and you would promise to deal with it. Is this how you decided to deal with it? Drinking to a point where you six feet underground and closer to hell then heaven?

ALEXA
I loved you. Did you know that? I always made it seem like I hated you because I thought that you wouldn't stop if I still loved you as an alcoholic. I never loved that part of you though. I love the father who grilled outside and taught me chess. He was a good person, and he loved me. But over the years I saw that man less and less. Did he die? Did the part that I saw for the last 5 years kill him a long time ago? Or was he fighting back, trying to get rid of it only to have killed himself? 

2 comments:

  1. I totally see what you're getting at here, and I think the ending is almost there. The only advice I'd give is try to take out the words that state bluntly what happened. Don't use words like "addiction", "alcoholic", "killed himself". It's already been established that this is clearly why he died, and the whole section will seem more poetic if you use the right kind of language.

    I do however like how you used death in the end.

    "But over the years I saw that man less and less. Did he die? Did the part that I saw for the last 5 years kill him a long time ago?"

    Talking about the death he experienced years ago when he gave up on himself as opposed to his physical death, there's something really beautiful about that. I think that you may want to work the ending around that.

    Maybe you can have her talk about his spiritual death more than his physical one?

    Maybe you can have her at her father's grave, but in reality he never actually died. Like she decided her father was dead to her, and she's giving him a funeral.

    Just tossing ideas around.

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  2. THis play is coming along, and you've really come along in terms of your thinking on the construction of your play. I love the fact that the play has EATEN you - know what I mean? It's living and alive and you want it - you need it - to be good, to speak, to sing.

    But I'm not sure what your difficulty is. What you've written seems like an ending. Are you talking about problems BEFORE the ending?

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